nothing matters… it’s all pointless…
dunno why I bother anymore. hopelessness is at a high tonight. feeling really lost and really stuck. everything seems pointless. therapy is just biding time. should just re-home everyone and call it a day. it would all be easier; rent would be cheaper and easier to find. they would be happier because they have someone who plays with them and takes them for walks and is the best owner they could be… clearly not me…
think I need to sleep now… hopefully things will be better in the morning (like that stupid quote on my phone claims)
both sides of the wall 