I’ve had an “off” cardiac history for most of the time I can remember. I’ve seen cardiologists, worn monitors for varying times, but nothing ever gets recorded or noticed as problematic when they are actuality searching for things.
When I was hospitalized, tech’s were constantly either retaking my vitals, or sending a nurse in to check it.
My average resting heart rate runs about 95bpm (i believe the “normal” for women my age is somewhere significantly lower than that).
No one’s been able to give me a solid reason, though the more research i do into ptsd and trauma, the more i realize it’s likely that.
Anyway, this week’s average had been in the 120’s. My doctor noted it when i went in for having sent my back into spasms on Sunday, but quickly dismissed it a a result of the coffee i was finishing… i should have mentioned to her the “poprocks” in my chest several times this past week, but I’m no good at bringing up something other than what she’s focused on in the moment… it kinda feels like someone lit a sparkler or trick candle inside my chest. It lasts for a few minutes, then fades. It comes more frequently as my stress levels go up. It’s not bad though, since it normally feels like a flopping fish…
Anyway, no doctor is really sure what to do with it all. I’m finally figuring out it is highly correlated with my stress and anxiety levels. This week, not only was i pretty triggered, but i injured my back, and i was fighting off something that drained all my energy (though that energy drain seems to correlate much higher with my tachycardia, just not sure if one causes the other, or both are responses to something else)… it’s not really surprising my pulse has been really high all week (if it ever sustains at about 250bpm for more than a few minutes, I’ll take something).
Today’s therapy was highly emotionally taxing, as were the earlier flashbacks…
(I clearly had something else in mind to write, but i was interrupted, and now have long forgotten what it would be).