That day of respite from all the heaviness yesterday is over today. I’m trying so hard to beat this thing. Is there treatment that actually works?? I’m doing the behavioral stuff I’ve learned over the years, going to outpatient therapy, doing meditation…
Meds tend to make things worse, but I am about ready to give them another try. Worst case I totally tank on them and everything finally ends.
I just don’t know anymore.
The only suggestions I keep getting from my treatment providers is to keep doing the stuff I’m doing, it’s just not helping…
both sides of the wall 
What are your thoughts?