Why is it frowned-upon to cut a family member out of your life if they cause nothing but grief? Why is it not accepted that I no longer want to speak to my father or hear about him, or have him anywhere near me? We have a long history of disappointments and abuse. I don’t need to have that in my life anymore. I have made the decision to not speak to him or see him. Why is that considered selfish? I had a long conversation with my mom today about him. Several times, she tried to convince me that I should “forgive” (not her word, but the gist of what she meant) him and not be so staunch in my refusal to see him or have him visit. I tried to make my point that we are now all adults. For me, this is a self-preservation thing. I no longer want him in my life because he has proven time and time again that he is only ever thinking of himself. She tried to convince me to “just ignore him”, but why should I set myself up for stress and frustration? Why should I allow myself to be put into another abusive situation. Mom and I agreed to disagree. She is also an adult and can do as she wishes with her personal relationships. If she wants to keep bringing him into her life, so be it, but I will not allow him to continue to damage mine. He has been nothing but hateful towards my family and friends. I don’t need that in my life. To me, chosen family is often times much stronger and more valuable than “blood” family (at least when it comes to my dad and his bitch of a sister). There is no expectation to stick around through abuse and disrespect, but for whatever reason, there is with “blood” relatives. I don’t accept that. If you are hurtful to me and the people/things I care about, you are out of my life. I will not be bullied back into that relationship because now I do know better and I do have a choice.
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