Saw the pcp on Tuesday.
L had the idea to make a comprehensive list of all the symptoms that have come up in the past year or so. It helped tremendously! We were able to give it to Dr. S, and she was able to get a better picture of things. She’s thinking that a lot of it can be related to a potential cervical vertebrae problem; we just have to figure out imaging. I have a chest piercing that had the radiology nurse really uncomfortable last time, enough that she said they would refuse to do further imaging from the waste up unless I had it removed… that would take a surgical procedure, and I’m just not interested in losing it forever if I can find another center that will do the imaging… so I’m waiting to hear back from her office about the next steps around that.
She’s also going to set up a referal for a second opinion on the neurology side of things, but I have to send her a copy of the neuropsych report so she can include it in the referral. I have that pulled together, just need to make it out to the post office to mail it.
I really hope something is figured out around this, and I hope there’s an easy, painless, non-invasive fix for it…
In the mean time, we are trying meloxicam for the pain… I took the first dose tonight, and I’m wired. The first 2 hours after I took it, I felt hyper, as if I’d taken an upper. I hope, if that’s one of the ways my body reacts to it, that it goes away soon. It actually helped the pain for those two hours, but it wore off quickly… it was the lowest dose though, so maybe a higher dose will help longer? I dunno, but it was nice to feel pain-free for those 2 hours or so.
So, we’re have some other things to look into. Hopefully one of them will yield answers.
Reading through my “reader” (or trying to), I was struck with the thought “I can’t read all this. There’s just too much going on inside my head to allow any of this to sink in!” So I backed out of the reader. I want to read other people’s blogs when I can devote enough brain-power to absorb what they are saying… I don’t like skimming just to pick out the main points (what I see as the main points). I like to know that I can actually devote attention to soaking up all that is contained in the words (and between them).
My head is full and empty at the same time. I know I have thoughts and ideas bouncing around in there, but they are going at a break-neck speed (or way too slow) and I cannot grasp them. The more I try to focus on any one thing, the faster it escapes me. We are going on a mini-vacation in a few days. My head is working out the details because I want to make sure to show L all my favorite stops there. I know I need to re-do my drawing from the other day. I have to shower and get ready for the day (I still smell like wood-smoke from the fire pit last night). I want to listen to music and nap and… yeah. too much, but at the same time too slow to actually do anything. Part of me wants to talk to De more but I’m not sure why or about what. I think it’s just that I had gotten into a groove of seeing her on Fridays. I saw her yesterday though.
Anyway, my head is too full of things that spill over to really allow me to pay attention to any one thing at the moment. I can manage to be still in De’s office. I think I need to pull that out into the real world again. I need to be able to be still within myself. Don;t get me wrong, I’m not racing, but more of just overwhelmed with too much input (what’s the correct term for information coming from within? input doesn;t sound correct in this sense).