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Titles and faking it

Last week with TM, the concept of feeling like a fraud my whole life came up. I was explaining that I know I have these accomplishments and education, but when I’m not in an intellectual space, I don’t connect to any of them. I can look at my resume and my degree and see my name, know I was there, understand that I knew this stuff at one time, but it all feels so removed.
A few sentences later, she called me by a title I never internalized; she called me a therapist. I visibly balked when she said this. I don’t identify with it at all. Yes, I have education towards it, and yes I was in that role at one time, but I only ever considered myself an intern or trainee. I never finished my schooling. I didn’t hold that job for more than a year… Yes, I had individual & group clients. Yes, I was the person they talked to about their “stuff”. Yes, we did “therapy” things, but I never felt like a therapist.

Therapists have their shit together. They don’t fall apart at the slightest trigger. They know how to handle stress. They are good about their self care. They stay working…

So no, I don’t consider myself a therapist. It’s something I’d like to get to some day, but most days I don’t consider myself a very good adult, forget the responsibility that goes along with the title of “therapist”… I hope I don’t ever come off as knowing more than I do. I don’t mean to.

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roadblocks (originally should have been published in July… now it’s out of place)

I finally got some energy and drive to look into other jobs, but I’m faced with more roadblocks then I can count.  I had wanted to apply for a Vet Assistant Certificate program, but there is no financial aid for that, and it’s nearly $2000 for a 20 week course.  I do not have a spare $2000 hanging around, so I will have to wait.   There are no animal jobs out there that don’t require a degree in a science, or a ton of formal animal experience.  How can I get experience if no one wants to give it to me?  I’m tired in my current field.  I want a change, but there is nothing that pays more then minimum wage when you start a new field…