In therapy today, the question came up of what processed dissociated memories “should” feel like…
I was mentioning that the things I’ve “processed” so far feel unreal. They seem to be packed away again and once again out of reach. They feel like someone else’s story, like a movie or TV show, but certainly not like experiences from my own life.
That continued disconnect keeps me questioning the truth behind this new “story” of my life.
Dr C wasn’t really sure how to answer her own question (about how it’s supposed to feel). I certainly don’t have an answer, as I’m just figuring things out for myself as I go.
Does anyone have experience with how it should feel to process events that were completely dissociated for so long? Do they feel real? Do you have access to them once they’re processed? How does it feel afterwards?
Thanks in advance.