Any words of wisdom or motivation? I can’t seem to get unstuck at the moment. I have not been able to pack in the last 4 days… it’s crunch time. There’s so much to be done, but no amount of talking to myself, lecturing myself, yelling at myself, or trying to express any of this is helping with it right now.
I’ve tried being gentle, I’ve tried being motivational, I’ve tried bribing myself, I’ve even tried guilting myself, but I feel frozen.
Maybe dragging myself out of the house would give me some sort of pattern interrupt to get me moving again? I dunno. Maybe the beach would recharge me?
I can’t talk about being stuck without crying (and that’s if I can even find the words) I can’t pack without crying and freezing… I tried reaching out to a variety of supports without being able to get relief or a break in this heaviness.
I resorted to leaving TM a message asking for some support. It was a boundary I didn’t want to cross, but I’m running out of ideas. I told her that I wouldn’t pick up if she called back so that she wouldn’t have to waste more than a few moments on a message. The other reason behind that is that I’m not confident of being able to actually speak with her if I answered. As soon as I open my mouth, I start to cry. Even with L last night, I couldn’t get words out around any of this…
I hate all the emotions this anniversary brings up. I hate that it’s now compounded by the move (or the move is made more difficult by this anniversary. Both are accurate ways of looking at it)…
I just need to be able to function long enough to get things done. I need something to work to make me functional.
June 30, 2015
Need help getting unstuck. Ideas?
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July 1st, 2015 at 10:38 am
Maybe some artwork? A walk outside? Taking a yoga class? Journaling? Stuck is a terrible way to feel. I know. And i am so sorry you are feeling stuck. As for packing, maybe set a timer for 10 or 15 minutes and just know you only have to pack until that timer goes off. I hope that you find something to help ground you wnd unstick you. Xx
July 1st, 2015 at 3:48 pm
Being stuck is awful. Unfortunately the only person who can “unstuck” you is… you. Hang in there my friend. The only advice I can give you is to grit your teeth and get through it one thing at a time.
July 1st, 2015 at 4:05 pm
thanks. that’s exactly what TM had told me today (I had called her for support the other day). just need to power through it.