I don;t know if I would say I’m “afraid” of going to sleep again, more like made uncomfortable by the thought of having to go to bed. I am not sure why this is. I love my bed, and I feel safe there with my wife. But the through of heading to bed right now is uncomfortable (and it’s now midnight, so it’s not like I’m trying not to go to bed too early or anything). I get this way sometimes, and it takes a lot of self-talk to get me there. I know in writing this, I will be talking myself into cuddling up under the blankets. I just wish I knew where this unease came from… nothing happened recently to bring it on, it’s just here. Maybe it’s that I get interrupted sleep these days. I would rather be allowed to sleep peacefully and through the night. I guess my thought process is somewhere along the lines of “the later I go to sleep, the less I’ll be able to sleep, so if I only get 4 hours uninterrupted, it won’t feel as bad as being woken up every 2 hours for the next 8…”
I dunno. It’s annoying.